04/11/2024
Felt I need to say something tomorrow so have written this
I was ready to say goodbye to the mum I had
But now I see we were both just sad
Part of me felt a sense of relief
As now at least no more grief
Wow was I wrong
How I wish we could start again
I grieved not what I’d lost
I grieved the mum I never had
I found all your letters to and fro from dad
I’m so so sorry
I was a child
I never knew
I just believed when he said you didn’t love me too
He let you down with his
manipulation and lies
The day you died he finally showed me his true side
I haven’t grieved him and never will
I see now his “love” is what made us both so ill
You were not present for most of the time
And no happy memories spring to mind
But I thank you from the bottom of my heart
You kept absolutely everything so I wouldn’t be in the dark
I knew that night when you left this earth
You woke me from my sleep
I now know all you ever really wanted was to be a good mum to me
Like me you tried but unfortunately you didn’t have a Damion by your side
Now it’s time for me to let you go
I can no longer just keep you in my home
I have to make your wishes true
And finally be a good daughter to you
I’ve made a tiny adjustment as I know you would agree
And given the date and your favourite saying
Fate told me it had to be
So now
with a little under half of you here
and a little under half of you there
the rest of you
“went out with a Big Bang”
sending your sparkles flying into the air
See you in the cosmos mum when we meet again