06/09/2026
I dont normally put moany posts up, they're unprofessional if anything, but I thought, you know what I will, it's my platform and this has been my feeling for a bit too long...
July and August have drained me, I've worked my ass off and held off from having my summer break whilst customers went away on theirs, I've still not had mine, (won't be doing this ever again, I've missed summer and I'm absolutely worn out!). I haven't spent quality time with my husband or my children. I've been cleaning my own house in the evenings and at weekends. Spare time has been taken up with errands not fun and not chilling out!
I had a lot of sh*tty news and things happen in a few short weeks, (all work related) some knocked my confidence, some made me feel really sad, some made me question why the hell I'm still doing this after 13 years, some made me wonder what the hell I'm going to do (with this new information) now, some made me feel under valued, something is making me feel unsafe at work. I've felt really low as a result and I've not been me, it's been noted, I've been less 'me'.
It would be so much easier working in a company and having colleagues to bounce off, banter with and chat to, getting paid time off and sick pay and getting paid even if someone cancels, loss of earnings, yeah that sucks! Not having the weight of everyone else on your shoulders because it's just you. So I keep telling myself, I am 'just the cleaner' after all.
Doesn't matter how hard you work, how accommodating you are, how kind, cheery, honest you are and how you always show up regardless. 'Just the cleaner' keeps popping in my head. I work for myself yet I am 'just the cleaner'.
I clean the same houses week in, week out. I dont take photos because I'm busy cleaning those houses. I dont make origami with toilet paper, because who the hell has time for that when you should be cleaning, and what a waste of toilet paper anyway and as for carpet lines, jeezus, they depend on your carpet pile, which way your carpet pile goes to which way you can hoover it and your hoover, and as far as I'm concerned I'm busy vacuuming it, so clean is important not lines! 🙄 I'm adding this because some people think you're only a good cleaner if you show photos of such things 😆
So when this text arrives on my little screen from a young women who is always grateful and very verbal with her gratitude, it makes my heart smile so big and you remember you do this job because it makes you feel good doing things for others. And that's who you are.😘
Roll on Friday, I'm taking ONE week off and spending it with my family doing as little as possible as long as it involves them 🥰
Five more days and counting eek!
Back to sewing the hem of my wide leg jeans, all women aren't 5ft 9inches so I wish they'd stop making trousers for them. Should of been a seamstress, it's less hazardous to my health than breathing in chemicals every day and I'd be able to take up all my trousers in minutes instead of hand stitching for hours 😴💤
