16/02/2024
"And this is how it works”
So I’ve been jogging along nicely, then something came up this week that I reacted to before I even knew I was doing it! It caused a bit of a disturbance in the force, and after, I couldn’t figure out why I had reacted that way. It felt out of character and uncomfortable.
It wasn’t that I was reacting with total disregard, but it wasn’t really a helpful response to the situation. I had ignored my gut feeling and handled a situation in a way I didn’t like.
So, earlier this week, before anyone was up, I took some time to do my own techniques (these are part of everyday life for me, and I mean it, and I do them without even thinking; they are second nature), but this one took me by surprise and needed a bit of extra attention!
I had reverted back to an emotional reaction to an event and trauma from the past and was experiencing emotions that were really unhelpful and unconnected to today's event!
After doing my drawing, my daily dump (this is writing, just so you know 😂), and a bit of route-map reprogramming, I had de-layered another layer of the emotional onion, and what a revelation and relief it was.
An attachment to a memory came to light; tears were running down my face, but the sense of relief was overwhelming. Without this work, I would never have connected the past to the present and been able to truly move forward, living a life that feels right now and not driven by past events, which unchecked could sabotage today without me even realising it.
My daughter even said to me,
‘Mum, you seem so much lighter today. What's happened?'
‘I just found a little bit more freedom.’
Happy Friday ###"
